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Time Journals Fall 2020

Anchor 2

This sound piece was made thinking about Sarah Sze's concept of expanding memories and piecing the layers back together again, while nodding to the work of Alvin Lucier and reflecting on Kaprow’s thoughts of John Cage’s creation of sound. Words in this piece consist of memory, memories, expanding, feeling, love, growth, growing, remember, remembering, younger, older, seeking, and seeing.

Expanding Memory

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Using clips of my own voice, I create an audible space thinking about previous artists used themselves -their body/voice- to create. I found that while most works comment on present social, personal and political matters there are still little ambiguous nods to the future. In this present moment there are feelings of unclarity, lack of information, injustice and yet hope resides eerily in strange spaces creating a swelling haze in a growing headspace --something that I hoped to produce -and continue to produce- with collected sounds

A Swelling Haze & A Swelling Haze Alternate

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Sometimes we have to look back in order to look forward to see new scenarios, opportunity, and faces. There needs to be a search through of the modern day and sound that will be heard and known... in order to hear and know the unknown.

Creating a soundscape of recycled and new material, I want to hear what a future can sound like in various forms, while also reflecting of what I had done to get here.

a Search for the Time Before to Soon be After

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Time Journals Spring 2020

Anchor 1

Age is a part of the social construct of time

Yet

Time is infinite and Life is finite 

We like to think that our lives will create a legacy

                                  A way of remembering

                           When we are gone

                                       To live through life again.

But life is only a memory 

of things that had been and are happening now

no one knows the future

                the only thing we know is to remember            and listen,

only time will tell.

Even still, the knowledge we had grasped 

is held tight within our fist, 

producing a scene of prediction

causing conscious suspicion that looks to tear us apart.

For the more time we spend with time

the more we realize a steady pattern

old habits don't  fully die

they evolve.  

Time

Relationship with Time

I do not mind the concept of time. Although it is a machine that we have created, it holds far more powerful things that we do not know... literally WE DO NOT KNOW. Everything that we do know is a memory. We do not know what will happen tomorrow or even in the next five minutes, it is a complete mystery that only time will tell. We tell ourselves that everything will blow over in time or that things with last through the ages, but I like to think in the present. For things that have happened are done -we can only learn from those, and things that are in the future are unknown -despite our optimistic minds. I am not afraid to get older, quite honestly, I embrace it, no matter how little amount of knowledge I own. But I like to think of time in the present because time has brought me here, to this place and this moment, to be with certain people. I may not understand it -quite frankly it is overwhelming at times, but here we are.  

Ending the Past

The more I get to know it

The more it holds me.

I wonder if it will let me down softly

or

try to keep within its space forever.

I wonder if I am giving too much of myself to this being 

that we have created

never wanting to be late

never wanting to have the wrong kind

and always wanting

 more.

I have always been curious

now I feel I know too much in places

to put back what I had thought.

I never truly understood

and maybe I still just need

more time.

The more I get to know it

The more it holds me.

I wonder if it will let me down softly

or

try to keep within its space forever.

I wonder if I am giving too much of myself to this being 

that we have created

never wanting to be late

never wanting to have the wrong kind

and always wanting

 more.

I have always been curious

now I feel I know too much in places

to put back what I had thought.

I never truly understood

and maybe I still just need

more time.

And So On

There is a stillness to the day

a kind of peace that unsettles my brain

as I try to find a piece of mind

The days before never bothered me 

like they do now

not a panic

not a worry

Just a lot of layers to peel

Just a lot of layers to feel

And so on.

It's Within You

I told myself to make a list

of the things I want 

And 

the things I missed

But the pen in hand leaves no mark

and the paper lays unengraved

as my exhausted brain tries to conceive

Time has given me a chance to believe that what was necessary 

is no longer an option

and knowing what is real is

hard

when each day

feels like an endless unwanted detour

and yet you are missing no action

I guess what I am trying to say

is that I do not know what I want 

or what I have missed

but their something about the ignorance

that gives me little bliss

It's Within You Pt2.

As I told myself to make a list

I thought about the people I met

the things that were discovered

and a new love to create

all new things

once foreign

now a friend

video art and media

a new way to keep track of time

a new way to reveal

I enjoyed this class with more love than I thought I was going give

Because I was unsure and didn't know much

but

it all turned out

I enjoyed it too much to end

and I want to keep learning

for as much

as my brain will let me

Until we meet again.

May we all meet again.

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